april 11, 2025: i had lots of fun in poland. still havent done any work for my essay. grandparents are both sick and its scaring me. i'm so stressed and disappointed in myself... :(
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april 8, 2025: first day in slovakia: done. tomorrow i am going to poland for one night to meet up with some friends. i'll be in a small town nearby the border - but it will be a JOURNEY to get there. i have so much anxiety speaking to non-family members in slovak so hopefully the travels go smoothly. i'm being picked up by my slovak friend's parents to get to the station tomorrow morning (5 hours from now); hopefully i'm not expected to speak much. i can converse fine with my family but with everyone else it really freaks me out... anyways, today was fine. i was supposed to get work done but i didn't... i ate good food though! will update again soon.
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april 7, 2025: going to slovakia today! visiting my grandparents in kosice. i'm so excited to not have to cook all of my own meals and be taken care of! it will make essay writing so much easier. i'm also excited to explore the city more since i haven't been able to do that (at least without my parents breathing down my neck!)
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april 2, 2025: an essay that is worth half of my grade is three days late at this point. majorly depressed and anxious. haven't spoken to someone in person in days and i haven't had a proper meal in days either. ordered fast food today - first full meal in what feels like ages. i'm just too tired to cook and live my life (but i want to - its just hard and i need more support). anyways, i had a good end of the day though because i got to play terraria with my partner and we beat a lot of bosses - we have 2 more until hard mode!
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april 1, 2025: I'm trying to make my blog but im not sure its working.
also, today is my two year anniversary with my partner.
i'm sad we can't be together today.
we called until it was officially today (their timezone) and played terarrara (i'll fix this later).
they're coming in a few weeks which i am very excited for! im gonna surprise them... somehow.
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