april 19, 2025: a lot has happened since i last updated. i finally have two essays done - and i didn't get extensions on either of them (which fucking sucks!) and i have two more left, one due on the 21st and midnight and the other on the 23rd at midnight... should be doable! i got an extension for the one that is due first, as it was originally due 7 days before that. for the other one, i'm not sure i wanna put myself through that so i'll just get it done ASAP. both of my grandparents are still sick, and i had to leave. i stayed an extra day just in case. they ended up being hospitalized on the 12th and were meant to leave on monday, but haven't yet, obviously. tomorrow, my mom will be flying to slovakia to take care of them (all the way from america!!) otherwise, not much has happened. it's been very stressful as i've been doing so much work. omg, i literally forgot that i did a job interview today for an on-campus job at my college - i hope i get it, but i'm worried i didn't present myself the most authentically. it would be a great job opporunity for me i think. i also went shopping for some new haircare and skincare products, and last-minute decided i would buy new pillows even though i have literally three weeks left. i decidede to buy new ones because i genuinely haven't been sleeping well, finals are soon, and my boyfriend is visiting and i want him to sleep well. i hope that with the softer pillows i will be sleeping better - my old ones are literally as hard as rocks and were 15 euro each - and these two new ones were 15 euro together!! anyways, that's all for now. this has been my longest update so far!!!! i probably won't update again for a while since my boyfriend will be here from the 20th-27th and i will also have 2 x 2500 word essays that i'll be working on. ok, bye now!
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april 11, 2025: i had lots of fun in poland. still havent done any work for my essay. grandparents are both sick and its scaring me. i'm so stressed and disappointed in myself... :(
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april 8, 2025: first day in slovakia: done. tomorrow i am going to poland for one night to meet up with some friends. i'll be in a small town nearby the border - but it will be a JOURNEY to get there. i have so much anxiety speaking to non-family members in slovak so hopefully the travels go smoothly. i'm being picked up by my slovak friend's parents to get to the station tomorrow morning (5 hours from now); hopefully i'm not expected to speak much. i can converse fine with my family but with everyone else it really freaks me out... anyways, today was fine. i was supposed to get work done but i didn't... i ate good food though! will update again soon.
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april 7, 2025: going to slovakia today! visiting my grandparents in kosice. i'm so excited to not have to cook all of my own meals and be taken care of! it will make essay writing so much easier. i'm also excited to explore the city more since i haven't been able to do that (at least without my parents breathing down my neck!)
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april 2, 2025: an essay that is worth half of my grade is three days late at this point. majorly depressed and anxious. haven't spoken to someone in person in days and i haven't had a proper meal in days either. ordered fast food today - first full meal in what feels like ages. i'm just too tired to cook and live my life (but i want to - its just hard and i need more support). anyways, i had a good end of the day though because i got to play terraria with my partner and we beat a lot of bosses - we have 2 more until hard mode!
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april 1, 2025: I'm trying to make my blog but im not sure its working.
also, today is my two year anniversary with my partner.
i'm sad we can't be together today.
we called until it was officially today (their timezone) and played terarrara (i'll fix this later).
they're coming in a few weeks which i am very excited for! im gonna surprise them... somehow.
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